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since i last updated here. after my last update, covid 19 happened. i still cant comprehend how those times fly.. sanitizers, masks, and lockdowns… completing 2 years of high school online… i miss free time during those days. i couldve spend it wisely.. played a lot of valorant, (shouldve played story games, at least youContinue reading “wow… its been like 3-4 years”

i saw weird dream that i was traveling with an old, “wise” man. but it was not a regular travel. in my dream, i knew that travel is for something like spiritual growing. whenever i think about that dream i sense that weird feeling.. i cant explain that feeling. it is not something negative, notContinue reading “that dream…”

what do you use as a antivirus software? avg, eset, windows defender, avast etc are most known ones. i was looking for a driver for my product. but wasnt sure if it has a driver?… finally found smth on internet. i installed the file. but didnt opened it. i was using avg free version. itContinue reading “antiviruses”

D1- i see myself playing violin. Not a pro, but not a beginner either. I guess i was trying to play Bach. D2- i see myself practicing violin. I am more amateur than first but, i do well than first somehow. Maybe these were result of listening Sibelius before going to sleep. D3- I seeContinue reading “Dreams again”

i was watching swan lake ballet. prince Siegfried holds the crossbow. but he holds it in a way, elegant or something, crossbow doesnot look like a dangerous weapon anymore. fascinating

three days ago (april 3rd) venus and pleiades had a very close encounter and looked like one, very bright star for a moment. it was so exciting and beautiful to watch it. im glad sky wasnot too cloudy that day. did you observe? i read this event happens once in 7 years

I was listening to Siren Sounds Waltz by Alma Deutscher, who is a child prodigy, and i started thinking “why do we even amazed by geniuses?”. simple answer, because what they created is amazing, and if the creator is a child, it is more amazing. because they are rare, they born talented, they did aContinue reading “prodigies and talent, versus hard work”

I had one or two friends that i don’t have in real life. We were lost and walking down a road. Weather was cloudy and grey. We passed a few buildings and arrived to wastelands. There was a railway. We passed the railway and arrived a woodland. We started to look for branches for someContinue reading “More dreams”

i rarely see nightmares or get terrified in my dreams. i wished i see more. because they are, art of horror really inpires me. and i did. i saw a dream which was i can consider it as a nightmare. all i remember is, my teeth were falling one by one, i was not feelingContinue reading “my dream(s)”

i got my uke 5 days ago. im trying to practice everyday. it is so much fun to play. but im scared of callus. i practiced piano before. i actually still do. but less, circumstances do not allow. and that hobby thing not going well. i have no motivation. and this entry looks like 7-y.oContinue reading “new instrument and things”